Ready to get the hell out of here!

Well what can i say its been a rough week its funny how when shit happens more shit tends to follow God likes to test me i think, people think I'm strong but I'm starting to wonder how much shit can one person handle because surely I'm closing in on my limit and I'm only 18 almost 19, I've still got years and years of living left to go! its about time a get a run of good things start happening to me My birthday is coming up soon so lets hope that at least that day is a good day :)

School has been testing the past 2 weeks and i have doubted whether i Truly have the ability to get past it i have considered giving up but i suppose that wouldn't get me anywhere now would it, so i must push on as i always do. its funny how you think your being more positive and things are looking up and then wham a huge load of shit is dumped on you and your like dammit now i have to start all over again thanks a lot world as if things weren't already hard enough you've got to go and make life more difficult. life aye. it does crazy things.

Something that has made me smile cooking and baking always makes me happy especially when people like my food, anyone ever feels like a home cooked meal or baking i would be more then happy to cook up something for you. also i received my 1st letter from one of my friends in wellington and that still makes me smile i have read it quite a few times i must admit but i like letters and its the only one I've got so sue me! also reading through the amazing book another friend put together for me so much effort was put into it and it is amazing i absolutely love it. But the thing that has most recently made me smile is the new Panic At The Disco Music Video Ready to go i don't know why but i love it might have something to do with the fact that i think the lead singer is a major cutie and might have to fly over to America and stalk him for a while just to get my fix ha ha only joking people I'm not like that.... or am I?

Seriously though if anyone wants to kidnap him and bring him over to New Zealand for me maybe a birthday present that would be pretty cool :P but really guys don't do that because its sort of illegal and i don't want to get you guys in trouble because i know a few of you were considering it since you love me so much aye.
Here is a not so good picture but it will do I'm not searching all day on the Internet.

Okay to be honest i don't particularly like this photo but Owell, lets move on I'm getting bored with this now.

Goals of the week:
1. Sort my shit out! Organise myself.
2. Push on try to stay positive i should really say try become positive ha ha.
3. Join WeightWatchers
4. Buy Panic At The Disco's New CD
5. I think that is enough goals i ain't a magician people!

Well Peps i think that is enough for today i need to start working on all these goals!
Catch ya later
love you all xx

You can tell everybody this is your post

So the world didn't end, pity I'm sure i would have been in the 2% that went up to heaven, I'm pretty much a fallen angel so i  mean of course god would want me back i might have to apologies for being clumsy and falling in the 1st place but what can i say God wants me but so do the people of earth.

So its my brothers 21st birthday today, so that's cool we are having a big family get together this weekend. This has me thinking my birthday is only a month away and i was planning to have a party as the parents were going to be away they know this though haha. I'm not a rebel unfortunately, ( fallen angel people keep up) But i have decided to scrap that idea in fact i don't really want to celebrate my birthday at all. i mean sure ill have a cake with the family or something like that i guess but i just want to forget about it. I not trying to have a pity party or anything just who am i going to celebrate with none of my friends are even going to be here, i don't think i realised how hard it was going to be having no friends close to you. its hard to make new friends when the majority of people on your course are past 30yrs old and have kids they have a life and things they have to do. they are pretty amazing doing a full time degree and raising kids at the same time though (Keryn that's for you :P) So i decided to skip my birthday this year, maybe send myself some flowers just to make it seem like somebody cares ha ha. Okay enough of this sad Anthea Crap.

i am considering not sending parcels as well i mean they make people happy for about 5 mins then it is just forgotten, its not exactly cheap. but i guess if it makes people i care about happy even for 1 second ill probably keep on doing it, i cant help myself.

Today has been a highly unusual day, it is freezing cold inside and warm outside this weirds me out. i don't know why it just does. maybe because I'm a weirdo myself.

My older sister has just gotten a puppy and he is the cutest little fluff ball, you can't help but fall in love with him i am considering stealing him but I'm not very good with plans like that. maybe i could hire some one?

Anyway here is a picture of me making a stupid face holding the puppy. LOVE HIM! Oh and his name is Yogi, Like Yogi Bear you know...

So hopefully ill find a way to kidnap him soon, any ideas would be greatly appreciated :)
Oh and let me know of any cool songs you guys have heard lately old or new, or songs you just think are awesome i love listening to music and hearing new songs that i can fall in love with :)

Catch you fellas later, PEACE OUT! <3

After thought: I totally had a pity party didn't i? dammit I'm really trying not to have them. owell one day ill learn.

Dancing till the world ends

Hey Peps how y'all doing?

Well i hope as there are only 2 days left until Judgement day and the beginning of the end.... (dun dun dun) so according to reports this is happening whether we like it or not. I DON'T LIKE IT!, i am not very happy about this at all. People trying to make money trying to scare people it is just ridiculous! They say ignorance is bliss so i think i might stay ignorant on this one, I've still got a lot of living to do people i cant just let the world end now it ain't guna happen! well at least it better not or ill be having some Strong words with someone.

Speaking of living, One of my good friends Kieran he also writes a blog read it! it is so funny i love it! Thatblogiwright anyway he just found out that he won a prize worth $70,000 i was like Say what? are you serious? and he was it is so freaking exciting here check it out Amazing Prize!!!! so I'm thinking i should take 3 months off and go live with him in a life of luxury. I'm pretty sure he will think that that is an amazing idea :)
The one thing that sucks is when everyone is like grabbing to be best friends with the prize winner that sort of thing just rubs me the wrong way. But owell. He deserves to win though so i hope he makes the most of it, Lucky Bastard :P

Oh and did i mention i sent him a parcel today as well so my parcel looks pretty crappy now ha ha. Thanks to the Rydges for out shinning my cool as parcel. Its almost as bad as America Killing Osama Bin Landin just to out shine the Royal Wedding. Come on people! (Okay i admit the parcel wasn't that cool.)

So that's about all from me today.. Lets hope the world doesn't end anytime soon so i can go visit my friend in his penthouse, What a High rollor!


So a big congratulations to Kieran! And Peace out! xx

Its been a while

Hey Guys,

I know i haven't gotten round to updating my blog in a little while and it's truly been killing you guys because i know how much you love reading it, i mean who wouldn't its pretty darn good ;P I have been so busy though. I've had my 2 essays and an exam as well as a full on week at work worked 9 hours on Saturday and 9 hours on Sunday as well. plus i stand for that hole time so my feet were killing me. Pitty no one wanted to give me a foot massage. I wouldn't have a clue as to why not i mean i have amazing feet :)

Its my 3rd week back a poly tech after 3 weeks Holiday but it feels as though i have been at school for ages and i feel in desperate need of a nice relaxing Holiday. it reminds me of the holiday i went on with one of my good friends to Auckland during the Christmas holidays last year. now I've never been a big fan of Auckland but i thought why not go there since I've never really been there and to be honest i actually really liked it, probably due to the fact we were staying in a nice hotel and i had money to spend on whatever i wanted ha ha. i would love to go again maybe somewhere else this time Tauranga maybe i don't know ha ha anywhere. i can't really go away by myself though so I'm open to anyone who wants to come on holiday with me :) ha ha. i was pretty darn good at convincing my friend to go to Auckland with me i mean like he would have said no anyway I'm a pretty cool person. :P

Man I'm giving myself an ego boost in this post.

I've decided to change things up a bit in my room and take down old photos and update everything so i have brought new frames and filled them with loving photos of me and all my friends i think they look pretty cool and it is sort of a refreshing change of sorts.

Goal of the week: To be more positive, Life always has ups and down, I need to focus on the ups more i reckon. Shit happens (love that saying) (Also LOVE Forest Gump!)

This is me and a few of my friends at drinks having a bit of fun as you can tell they are all pretty cool guys :) the majority are living in wellington now but it was nice to catch up with them while they were here on holiday.

This is a creation me and a french friend of mine made it is a french wedding cake i forgotten what its called my bad ha ha. It was heaps of fun to make but took a lot of time we made everything from scratch, the pastry puffs, the custard inside them, the caramel etc. we thought we didn't do too badly :)

Anyway that's about it on the update oh one more thing my parents have just decided to have a weekend away. and when did they decide to go? on my birthday that's when. shouldn't i be having a weekend away? maybe i should just have a party instead, hmmmmm....

Oh well i best be stepping, gotta go do some work.
see you peps later
PEACE OUT! xx

Half way through essay and half way to a full blown headahce

Hi Everybody, Hi Doctor Nick (a little simpsons humour there)

I'm in serious need of a Doctor, or some drugs would do fine i guess. life is none stop at the moment, well except for the social part that has stopped completely! I've got essays and homework coming out my ears. I've worked 16 hours this weekend and havent had a break, as soon as i get home its straight into more work. and today i think my body is telling me to slow down. My head feels like it is about to exploded its so heavy and ahcing and i am seriously considering cutting my head off solving more then one problem at once. i am about half way through my essay and really i  need to finish it today which is going to be fun with my head like this. Life can be a little shit sometimes. i just want to yell at it and send it to its room.

anyway as you can tell i am now in an irritable mood due to the pulsating fire ball in my head, its like Osama planted a bomb in there just before he died and timed it so it would exploxed right when i needed to use it. by the way i though Osama died ages ago. My bad.

Okay my last bit of bitchy for the day. Now I'm not a full on texter texting none stop all day 20 people at one time that sort of thing, but i like to send the odd text and catch up with friends etc. BUT it pisses me off when people don't text back i mean i understand if your busy and what not but still i always text people back because i hate the feeling i get when people don't text me back. also i am getting a little sick of people who i consider really good friends never contacting me in anyway just to even say hey. i always try my hardest to stay in contact with my friends and ive got lots of shit to do and im bloody exhausted. yet i always find time for my friends. it makes my day when i get a text from a friend or a message or something. I mean if you don't want to be friends with me then just fucking tell me already i will gladly go away! anyway i think thats enough bitching sorry about that but i had to get it off my chest.

Its funny how you type really hard on the key pad when you have a major headache or are angry and i'm both so my key pad is taking a hammering :P

If you want to make it up to me for being a shitty friend and not talking to me feel free to send me flowers i love flowers if anyone sent me flowers they would automatically go into the I FUCKING LOVE YOU! catagory :)

This is one of bestest friends Ben, he is like a brother to me i love him heaps. Ben replys to my messages most of the time haha. He is a goober but so am i.

Funny  thing is me and Ben weren't always friends infact he used to hate me. We would have massive arguements in the middle of math class yelling at eachother from across the room. haha and now i don't know what i would do with out him. LIFE ITS FUNNY.

i have also decided to go back to the old ages and write letters to all my friends it nice getting things in the mail. Well atleast i think so. :) we shall see if i get any replys haha.

Im an amazing person really i dont know why anyone whouldnt reply to me, I'm fucking awesome. i may have a lot of flaws but hey who doesnt. LOVE YOURSELF but not too much or that would just be weird.

I have no idea why i mean im not a huge Lady Gaga fan she is okay but i'm not crazy about her but for some reason i am completely obssessed with her new single Judas, me and my co-worker have been singing that song non stop for the past 2 days and i love the video clip too.
Have a listen: Lady Gaga - Judas

Oh and My one of my BESTEST friends has started a blog aswell have a read its pretty good, Loving it.  http://kelface92.blogspot.com

Thanks for reading peps,
catch ya on the flip side home dog.
PEACE xx

Another essay another post.

Hey Guys, So i am about to embark on another essay 1500 words should be a piece of cake. Well considering i can't recall any work covered in this class over the last 3 months might be a problem, probably should have paid more attention.

Obsession of the week Adele's new CD 21. It is amazing everyone should have a lesson. in fact the song Turning Tables was covered on GLEE! by Gwyneth Paltrow. You know those songs where the lyrics seem to be explaining your life story at that moment. Well this CD is full of them. LOVE IT!

So lets just go ahead and put it out there already. This has been a pretty Crap week. Stress being the key factor as well as inner turmoils. I have now come to accept that i rather F**Ked up mind. It never listens to me. Okay now i just sound like a crazy person who talks to themselves but i haven't gotten to that degree of insanity yet, close but not that far. Who doesn't talk to themselves though really, come on i know you all do it. ADMIT IT! so i feel a little less crazy.

Sanity has begun to creep its way back. But i have a feeling it will not stay long as the prospect of another easy sits over the horizon. Man I'm a poetic person. And i didn't even know it. Did i mention i tend to tell a lot of lame jokes? Well now you know.

A couple of my most bestest Girlfriends came to visit from University a few weeks ago and as amazing as i am i worked an 8 hour day and then cooked a 4 course meal for them. i know I'm a trooper. Lets just say i drank most of the wine. It was indeed a fun night. Love those girls to pieces.

I have become the Queen of procrastination but can you blame me who wants to write an essay especially 2 in close proximity, not to mention i sat an exam yesterday. Have probably gained the equivalent of a small person in weight. lets just say in stressful times lollies are my friends/enemies.

As you can tell from this post which i apologies for being quite bad i have not quite found the light in my rather depressive week, but hey we all have them so don't be hating. (yes i did just say that)
i did write be positive on post it notes and put them in my study room. That's productive is it not?.

Should we get deep? I think although seeing my friends whenever i am able to is amazing and i llove every minute of it, it doesn't get any easier saying goodbye in fact i find it harder. But life is life and we can't change that. make the best out of every situation people!

Things i have learnt this week:
1. It is extremely difficult to read text messages when you have large black cracks covering the screen of your phone thanks to some lovely soul standing on the phone.
2. Thinking before speaking really is a good thing, you don't want to be like me and try explaining something in the middle of a lecture only to say "and shit..."
3. Holding on to the past doesn't do you any favours.
4. Although letting go is hard to do.
5. Loving someone who doesn't love you sucks balls.
6. Eating lollies has done amazing things to my already banging figure.
7. I have learnt way too many things this week.

Heres a little tease of some amazing music! LIKE IT! Adele - Someone like you

I have descovered something i would be good as at. I cook relatively well, like cleaning, love kids (except for the little shits). i would be a great housewife, pitty its not 1950 anymore. owell will have to search (just had a huge metal block on how to spell search) for something else.

Anyway Peps i best be stepping got some home dogs to catch up with and some bitches to sort out, catch ya on the fly. peace out!