Ready to get the hell out of here!

Well what can i say its been a rough week its funny how when shit happens more shit tends to follow God likes to test me i think, people think I'm strong but I'm starting to wonder how much shit can one person handle because surely I'm closing in on my limit and I'm only 18 almost 19, I've still got years and years of living left to go! its about time a get a run of good things start happening to me My birthday is coming up soon so lets hope that at least that day is a good day :)

School has been testing the past 2 weeks and i have doubted whether i Truly have the ability to get past it i have considered giving up but i suppose that wouldn't get me anywhere now would it, so i must push on as i always do. its funny how you think your being more positive and things are looking up and then wham a huge load of shit is dumped on you and your like dammit now i have to start all over again thanks a lot world as if things weren't already hard enough you've got to go and make life more difficult. life aye. it does crazy things.

Something that has made me smile cooking and baking always makes me happy especially when people like my food, anyone ever feels like a home cooked meal or baking i would be more then happy to cook up something for you. also i received my 1st letter from one of my friends in wellington and that still makes me smile i have read it quite a few times i must admit but i like letters and its the only one I've got so sue me! also reading through the amazing book another friend put together for me so much effort was put into it and it is amazing i absolutely love it. But the thing that has most recently made me smile is the new Panic At The Disco Music Video Ready to go i don't know why but i love it might have something to do with the fact that i think the lead singer is a major cutie and might have to fly over to America and stalk him for a while just to get my fix ha ha only joking people I'm not like that.... or am I?

Seriously though if anyone wants to kidnap him and bring him over to New Zealand for me maybe a birthday present that would be pretty cool :P but really guys don't do that because its sort of illegal and i don't want to get you guys in trouble because i know a few of you were considering it since you love me so much aye.
Here is a not so good picture but it will do I'm not searching all day on the Internet.

Okay to be honest i don't particularly like this photo but Owell, lets move on I'm getting bored with this now.

Goals of the week:
1. Sort my shit out! Organise myself.
2. Push on try to stay positive i should really say try become positive ha ha.
3. Join WeightWatchers
4. Buy Panic At The Disco's New CD
5. I think that is enough goals i ain't a magician people!

Well Peps i think that is enough for today i need to start working on all these goals!
Catch ya later
love you all xx